““I do not want to be the color that you finally see because you have been painting in black and white your whole life.””
I want you to be whole when I meet you.
I want you to love yourself. I want you to know yourself. I want you to be so happy with your life that meeting me adds to the picture.
I do not want meeting me to be the last brushstroke of your masterpiece. You spent your whole life painting your picture, I do not want to be the reason you stop.
You have spent your whole life blending your yellows and blues, trying to find a perfect balance. How wonderful for me to be that brushstroke that comes along and blends it green.
I do not want to be the final touch to your masterpiece, I want to be a part of it.
I do not want to be the color that you finally see because you have been painting in black and white your whole life.
I used to want to be that. I used to want to be what you didn’t know you were looking for. Not anymore. I want to be everything you are looking for.
I want you to be so sound in yourself, wants, and needs that when I come along you breathe deep. You step back and look at the bigger picture. Look at the colors you have chosen, the strokes you have made so far, the movements you have spread across your canvas.
I want to be what makes you realize that everything you have been doing in life before me has been for a reason. I want to help you realize your painting was beautiful before I came along.
I want to be there to remind you that you are whole.
I want to remind you when the days you need extra color, one more brushstroke to feel like the picture is finished, someone to hold the paintbrush when your hand gets tired. I can be that person, I want to be.
I want you to be whole before you meet me, but that doesn’t mean I will leave on the days you don’t feel so.
Eighty forty. That's the recommended ratio to keep your battery at, somewhere between eighty and forty percent. Not too full and not too empty.
When I meet you, I don’t you to be one hundred percent ego. Leave that twenty percent open to knowledge. Leave it open for the conversations we will have about the beginning and the end and the thing in middle we call life.
Leave that twenty percent open for trying new foods. Leave it open for discovering this world. New mountains, new card games, new lakes, new beaches, books, recipes.
Leave that twenty percent open for the new people I will introduce you to and I will leave it open to the friends you introduce to me. I will leave my twenty percent open for you, and you leave it open for me.
On the days when you feel like you’re at forty percent and on the days when you don’t feel yourself- out of touch with those around you, don’t know why you’re tired after good nights sleep- I will be the rest of the battery you need, your brush’s cup of water, your green.
All these moving parts are what make life life, what make people people, and what makes love love.
I want you to be whole when you meet me and I will be there even on the days you don’t feel so.