I want you to be whole before I meet you. I want you to love yourself. I want you to know yourself. I want you to be so happy with your life that meeting me will add even more to that picture. I want meeting me to be the last final paint stroke to your masterpiece. You spent your whole life painting your picture, blending your yellows and blues and finding that perfect balance. I want to be that brushstroke that blends them together to make your green. I want to be that final touch, what you were looking for to complete it.
I don’t want to be the color that you finally see because you have been painting in black and white your whole life. I used to want to be that. I used to want to be what you didn’t know you were looking for. Not anymore. I want to be everything you are looking for. I want you to be so sound in yourself, wants, and needs that when I come along you breathe deep. You can step back to look at the bigger picture- look at the colors you have chosen, the strokes you have made so far, the movements you have spread across your canvas. I want to be what makes you realize that everything you have been doing in life has been for a reason- that your painting was beautiful before I came along.
I want to be here to remind you that you are whole. I want to be here to remind you that if on some days you need some extra color, you need one more brush stroke to feel like the picture is finished, maybe you need someone to hold the paint brush for you when your hand gets tired. I can be that person, I want to be. I want you to be whole before you meet me, but that doesn’t mean I will leave on the days you don’t feel so.
Eighty forty. That's the recommended ratio to keep your battery at- somewhere between eighty and forty percent. Not too full and not too empty. When I meet you, I don’t you to be one hundred percent ego. Leave that twenty percent open to knowledge. Leave it open for the conversations we will have about the beginning and end and the thing in middle we call life. Leave that twenty percent open for trying new foods with me. Leave that twenty percent open for the new people I will introduce you to and I will leave it open to the friends of yours you introduce to me. I will leave the twenty percent open for you, and I want you to leave it open for me.
On the days you feel like you’re at forty percent and on the days when you don’t feel yourself, when you feel out of touch with those around you, when you don’t know why you are tired even though you had a good night’s rest- I will be the rest of the battery you need.
All these moving parts are what make life life, what makes people people, and what makes love love. I want you to be whole when you meet me and I want to be whole when I meet you.